where's my stethoscope?

i grew up with the conviction that i'd become a doctor one day. i studied hard since grade school and always put my name on top of honor list. i knew it would be a big help if i belong to the 'intelligent cohort'. when i finished high school i was so determined to get a medical course when i enter college. luckily,(if it was really luck)i was accepted as a bsbio student in up tacloban. i was very happy then, thinking i'm almost there, i've had the first step. i told myself after finishing bsbio i'd proceed taking up med proper. i couldn't recall everything but suddenly it seems that i've waken up from a long dream now seeing myself a psychology grad and not a med practitioner. i am not on the rescue of ill people but now on the rescue of papers on deadline here in the office where i work. all i could remember is i was working too hard to reach my dream yet i failed. i'm so optimistic then but when checking on reality i knew that my parents can't afford to send me to medical school when i still have two younger siblings who are also in college - the reason that i decided to shift to another course. i have to trade-off my dream of becoming a doctor with my two siblings stopping college education if i insist. but still i didn't give up, together with my decision of shifting to psychology, in my thought was - 'if i can't be a doctor of people who are physically ill maybe i'll try to be a doctor of those who are mentally ill.' rationally, that was what's in my thought then. not a bad option, right? they say 'experience is what you get if you don't get what you want.' true enough and the experience i gained has taught me to become resilient. my not becoming a doctor didn't kill me anyway, i've become stronger knowing that i can be better of as something else other than just being what i dreamt of becoming. now i work in a multinational organization and i'm enjoying each new task that comes with my everyday work deal. getting stronger and wiser each day.

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01 july, 2005
9:16 am
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etching lang! assignment kc ng pinsan...'my dream & i' daw