It's hard to let go of my Romeo and find a new one...

I saw him sneaking a look at me.
What’s in he’s thought? What’s happening? I’m clueless.
I approached him. Silence rang the place. Only heartbeat could be heard, fast, beating fast.
He’s trying to move away from me. Why? I’m not trying to scare him or what!
I went nearer and nearer. Now we met in the eye. He remained still this time.
I stepped back to the door and closed it to make sure he’s not going out of my room any moment. I went back to him.
Wait. What’s that on my bed? I stopped. I feel that my feet is numb.
I look around for a moment…

“Blood! Oh God!”
I ran out of the house quickly to ask for help.
“Help!.”
Thanks a good-natured neighbor heard me.
We hurried to my room and ask the man to help me call a medic.

“Romeo, you will not die…. You must not die!
Don’t leave me my Romeo.”

But he did.
It was his fate.

Weeks passed. I arrive home each day with no one meeting me in the doorway like before.
I have no one to play with anymore after office deal.
I’ll miss my Romeo. I guess it’s now time to let go of Romeo.
Goodbye Romeo.

I’ll pass by my friend’s pet shop after office today.
I’ll find myself a new doggie.
I’ll train him not to jump over the neighbor’s barbwire fence because it may lead to his death.
I’ll never let another Romeo die.

Little trouble with meet-market....

Why are some people (I'm referring to singles) so excited in finding themselves a date when I am not. Many friends would offer help to find me a date,...excuse me I don't ask them to. I'm boyfriendless (if there's such a term) for two years already and I haven't went out on a date with someone since i broke up with my x-man (he's not Cyclops or Wolverine, you might think)last June 2002:(:(:(....But hey! I'm happy with myself being not attached with any man at this moment.

I just actually would like to share a certain instance when i was made to meet a man
(working in the same hub)where i am now and this is what happened...

A new girl friend of mind and her also new friend in the workplace agreed to introduce me to a guy...but it was just a joke I thought until someone came up to me along with the new friend of my new girl friend (you're confused now!)...Oh my! and he's trying to introduce the man to me...of course it's not a novel experience to me anymore to be introduced to a guy but hey what is this I'm hearing from my new girl friend's new friend (...I'm sorry but we need anonimity here) "I plea for him to come up here and then just that, blah-blah-blah..."
***HELLLLOOOOOO! did I ask you to do that for me?...Actually there's nothing wrong with getting to know a man, what bothered me is that i sounded like asking for a favor i never really did (saving my ego?!? with the thought of: "I am neither interested to know any man nor desperate to find myself a date or what!!!) And to my shock, I just heard myself saying the following: "Did I ask you to do that for me?", "Is it part of your job here to be introducing me to whoever?" ---all to the new friend of my new girl friend while ignoring the guy beside him.
Now, question!?!: Was I rude? Was it because I just didn't have a nice sleep last night that i got so hmmmnnn, early in the morning?...let me clarify, i didn't scream at him at all, I stay poised but with cheeks red-hot of shame and quite slighted...in the first place, I myself didn't know I'd feel that way.

See! I'm rationalizing things now when I knew I should have done it earlier.
By the way, I wrote a letter for the guy but of course it's not for him to read.
I love to write so I'm just putting them into inscription now. My writing, again, my emotional outlet.


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Dear Sir,

I just would like to apologize for this morning’s incidence.
I’m sorry if I appear rude to you. Please don’t think I am
too egoistic for ignoring you.
Honestly, I don’t even remember your name.
In fact, I’m hesitant in doing this but just let me for my peace of mind.
I just would like you to know that I’m not cool enough
to engage in stuffs like the one that happened this morning.
I’m not interested to know anybody of you at the ABCD* for reasons
other than ask assistance from you when I need one.
It’s not really a big deal but I just want to get away with
ignominy that I feel for myself for acting the way I did during that time.
Thanks for wanting to know me anyway, if you really did.
Again, I’m sorry...It was just a girl friend’s joke that lead to this.
It just really didn’t make me feel good early in the morning.
.....But I’m definitely FINE!

Sheryl

* let's hide the office acronym.

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And now, rememb'ring what happened...i could just laugh hard at it as a joke.
Oh life!